If you are wondering why I wrote in English, its because I'm blogging with my office's computer. And I have started my night desk for 2 weeks now. This is how I feel:
I'm feeling lost.
Not because of night desk alone, but in general my job.
I got a little emotional when we (me and the rest of the night desker) got cheated by the higher rank. They have always said but never any action, never any confirmation. We are young, we are not married, we are very flexi with any decision. And they exploit us of our rights, made use of us. We were really upset with their attitude, the way they handle stuff.
A colleague told me he rejected his job offer because we got to claim extra money. Now that they refuses our rights just because he didnt check the proper paperwork, we might not get what we deserves. We worked as hard as they are, worked even longer hours than they. They even took our public holiday away. But in return we got sarcasm and ignorance.
While I was standing by the window one night overlooking the pretty KL skyline from 29th floor, with classic oldies played in the background, this hush of emotion attacked me. I was feeling kind of emo, something was upsetting me. It was a mixed feelings of anger and anxious, I have no idea what am I doing, where lies my future. It got me thinking. Thinking of my job, of my future, of me. I know for sure, this job is not my forte. I will leave. So I set a dateline, I set a life draft and hopefully when times come, I will find my way.
Its a emo kinda night.
:/
