Thursday, 28 August 2014

乱七八糟

“每个人 
都在等一个人”

不好意思 这两个礼拜我会不断更新 因为夜班真的没事情做
刚才 花了一点时间
大概读了九把刀的 等一个人的咖啡
电影要上了
因为他前一部 备受好评
所以很多人很期待这部电影
我刚巧没事做 就去找了那本书来读读

读了以后
还真想看那部电影
我不多说 不想透漏太多
可是 就很典型爱情小说
可是很让我心动

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夜深人静 我又再次走到了
那个前几个星期 让我十分emo仰望着的窗口
背后还是传来忧伤的歌声
有点害怕要换一个环境
过两天 要搬家了
搬进一个什么都没有的家

我知道我不应该后悔我的选择
我自己知道那房间真的不好
今天 去坐了一下
发现它在大马路旁
车飞驰的杂音
小狗的叫声
让我真的很害怕
我现在的睡眠质量已经很不好了
如果搬了以后
应该不用睡了

地点也比我以前的家离公司远
附近 也没有能走去打包的餐厅
LRT也不是离家很靠近
那你问
我为什么要租那里呢
因为
我 desperate了
要求太高 一直选择
做不了决定
一向以来 都是我的弱点

答应自己
两个月后就搬
可是自己开始厌倦要找要看房间的麻烦

我也害怕后天要跟我现在的屋主吵架
她一定跟我扣我deposit的钱
我很累 很懒得要与她吵 
能不能 就这样结束

除了害怕这环境的改变
我也担心我的钱
因deposit要呕出多余的钱
因为房间是空的
我还要为了那住不久的房间添一点家私

这乱七八糟的心情
过了这星期 应该会平复了

加油!


Wednesday, 27 August 2014

我相信
小灾能挡大灾

我的车
一年了
身上却有了三个模模糊糊的痕迹

第一次
车停在我家附近
那时 我还是搭巴士去做工的
有一天 在走去巴士站的时候
看见了 那第一个痕迹
我的车的右边 凹了个小洞
不明显 我却很心痛
不知道 谁干的
所以也追究不了

第二次
在tbs parking 
上完旋转式的停车场
前面的车突然停了下来
我也停了
突然 它向后退了
我honk了他
可是它已经撞了到我的车
前面的右边凹了
车主很好人
叫我去他侄子车厂弄
结果 人力把那凹处推了出来
姐姐男友说不值得换整个bumper就算了
饶了那位uncle
那是 第二个痕迹

第三次
在下雨的cyberjaya夜晚
路上没什么车
我前面的车在一个bumper前
突然刹车 
我没看见
努力踩了刹车
还是撞上它了
它车凹了 我车也凹了
它不追究 我也不理会了
前面正中间car plate 凹进去了
那是第三个痕迹

第二个和第三个痕迹
都是在同一月发生的
我真心觉得自己很倒霉
也很心疼我车

电脑弄了没到半年
又出现了要生病的征兆

写这个
是为了buang sui
要好好的 把霉运赶走

我真心觉得我这三小灾
是挡了一个大灾血灾

我懂 我明白
所以 现在可以走走些好运了吧

保佑我 
我只想健健康康而已


Wednesday, 20 August 2014

心情不好篇

心情很不好

对不起 身边的人
如果我对你有些发脾气 有些不耐烦 有些严肃
请你原谅我

这全是因为
荷尔蒙失调
还有 睡眠受到严重影响
所以最近不爱笑 不爱说话

最近 有许多事需要处理
工作 满一年了
这也代表很多东西 也过期了 

最近 忙着找房间
原来找一间自己完全满意的房间这么难
要不是价钱不对 就是房间是空的

最近 在弄我车的保险
刚才不小心对我家妈妈发了一点脾气
不好意思 

最近 也需要renew我的工作执照

一年了
时间过得真快

感到莫名的落寞
好吧 我去emo去了


Friday, 11 July 2014

Lost

If you are wondering why I  wrote in English, its because I'm blogging with my office's computer. And I have started my night desk for 2 weeks now. This is how I feel:

I'm feeling lost. 
Not because of night desk alone, but in general my job. 

I got a little emotional when we (me and the rest of the night desker)  got cheated by the higher rank. They have always said but never any action, never any confirmation. We are young, we are not married, we are very flexi with any decision. And they exploit us of our rights, made use of us. We were really upset with their attitude, the way they handle stuff. 

A colleague told me he rejected his job offer because we got to claim extra money. Now that they refuses our rights just because he didnt check the proper paperwork, we might not get what we deserves. We worked as hard as they are, worked even longer hours than they. They even took our public holiday away. But in return we got sarcasm and ignorance. 

While I was standing by the window one night overlooking the pretty KL skyline from 29th floor, with classic oldies played in the background, this hush of emotion attacked me. I was feeling kind of emo, something was upsetting me. It was a mixed feelings of anger and anxious, I have no idea what am I doing, where lies my future. It got me thinking. Thinking of my job, of my future, of me. I know for sure, this job is not my forte. I will leave. So I set a dateline, I set a  life draft and hopefully when times come, I will find my way. 

Its a emo kinda night. 
:/


Monday, 30 June 2014

Sharing the love

I've wanting to write about this for a while but never had the mood to do so. 

As we step into the second half of the year, I find myself thinking of the resolution I made earlier this year. I didn't wrote down my resolution this year as I want to change as time goes by. I didn't want to constraint myself. One resolution in particular stand out as it involve other people and not only changes in myself. 

Last year when I was having a very difficult time financially, I found myself at a verge of being broke. I have never ask for any extra money that period of the time from my parents because I know they were in a worst position than I was, at least I did have my ptptn money with me. 

I blog about it in my personal blog which was deleted a while ago. Two friends, read it and approach me offering me money. Both of them are not well off, nor were they making a lot of money at that time. But both of them offer to borrow me money and pay them back later. I rejected as I knew I was able to live by without starving but with a very minimum amount of money. 

That very action explains my resolution actually. Often, we forgets the kindness of our friends, how they were willing to sacrifice a little part of them for us. 

For the whole year of 2014, I wanted to repay my friends who treated me like a friend. I wanted to be a little more caring. And that was why I started my little project of mine of buying them a meal. A whole lot of them started questioning my intention at first, some easily accepted my reason, some shrug it off like I was crazy. But in the end, I did pay the bill. 

So far, I have succeed buying 7 friends a meal. The food itself had no meaning, the gathering behind that meal is. My condition of my project is that it must be only 2 person so we had time to talk and catch up. I like the idea of sharing thought together and just talk. 

6 months left, if you want to catch a meal with me, please don't hesitate to call me. I would be more than happy to belanja you. 

PS: Please do not ask me out on month end. Haha 

Wednesday, 25 June 2014

请按下面的youtube听
 一边读一边听


也不知道从何时开始
习惯了 做什么事 都有背景音乐

想当年 电脑还没fomat前
电脑里有上千,可能还上万首歌
不同年代 不同语言 不同类型
可是听了 特别舒服

可能 一个人太久了
所以 有时候也盼望有声音陪我

以前读书时
考试前一天读书还是会开歌读
收拾房间 打扫房间 
发呆 无聊 烦恼 伤心 愤怒 开心 兴奋
也会听歌 

毕业以后 好久没有像今晚一样
啥也不做 就听着歌 

烦恼好像不见了
疲劳也消失了

:D

Sunday, 8 June 2014

旅行



喜欢旅行
喜欢Explore
喜欢看见不一样的东西 
喜欢尝试不一样的事情
喜欢在陌生的地方做陌生的事情遇见陌生的人

身边有许多朋友同事一辈子没去哪里旅行过
而我很幸运地 虽然没去过很多地方 
可是也去了不少地方

也爱上了旅行

隔壁的同事告诉我
他去旅行一定跟团 因为一切很陌生
很多人很害怕这种不安感
而我 却很喜欢那种感觉

老板很爱告诉我们
这世界很大
不只是在马来西亚而已
叫我们放远点看

其实这世界真的很大

就算我这辈子去不了环游世界
也想尽力努力看看这世界

朋友们
走吧!
一起旅行去!

 Bangkok - Checked :D